It's been a minute since I've posted, I know!!! Lots has happened in the last few weeks, so there is much to share. I haven't felt like much like posting due to the fact that there is so much I had to take into consideration when I decided to stay in Texas. Yes, it's true, I've decided to stay.
How did it all come about you ask. Well it all started about two weeks ago.........
We went out for cocktails one night after work. It was girls night out that because an after work party that became a tiny bit out of control. We drank, we laughed, we smoked, we gossiped, it was all together good, clean fun. The weather was perfect, the drinks were cold and the company was good. The conversation turned to my leaving. They were all sad about the upcoming date. I was sad too, but I had all but promised my first born that I was returning to Minneapolis.
What was keeping me from staying. I liked my job, I worked with fun people, the weather is great, I'm close to the ocean, Joy's here, I have family in Austin that I recently reconnected with, and Houston has the second best Creative Writing Master's Program. But still, I wasn't making enough money to support myself in the manner which allowed me to eat, pay rent and make a car payment. So, on a whim I went into my supervisors office (who was also not pleased with my decision to leave) and told her that in order for me to stay I needed to make x number of dollars. She took it to her supervisor and 3 hours later the decision to stay was decided (and final, for now anyway).
The hardest part of all this has been knowing that I have friends in Minneapolis that I love and want to spend time with, but the lure of a decent salary and a great education have come out the victor in this battle for my future. Besides, Troy is still emailing me, which I fear might lead to some poor decision making on my part if we were ever to run into each other. There is no guarantee that I would be able to find a decent job immediately upon my return. Living paycheck to paycheck at 30 isn't my idea of a bright future. So, I have to give it a shot. I don't know if it's the right decision, and I feel like I am letting some people down, but I as my disappointed but supportive mother said, I have to live for myself not for someone else (and she even meant herself when she said that).
So, I've already got almost enough furniture to fill a small apartment (supplied by my new friend Peter and his girlfriend Karen for a steal of a deal), I have my bed, which I have grown to love over the last several months, now all I need to find is a place to live once Joy sells this place. Thoughts of buy a super cheap house in a so-so neighborhood have been crossing my mind, as the mortgage would be cheaper than rent, but I half think that I should wait until I know if I can get into the University of Houston.
Speaking of which, I have two connections to the English department there. One of the supervisors at my job (who I handle some problems for, it's like I'm his go to girl), happens to know someone. So when I went into his office the other day to let him know that he can't call me short-timer anymore, gave me the hook up. When I was telling my friend Rod the story, he reminded me (not that I forgot) that his father is the head of the English department at the University of Houston. Rod offered to set up a meeting for me with his dad, which might give me a heads up on what they are looking for in their masters program students.
I've told almost everyone about these big changes, except for Susan. Susan is my good friend who is storing some of my shit for me at her house in Minneapolis, and up until the end of last week who I was going to be living with in about 7 weeks. I have to call her tonight and let her know, but I'm just so afraid of hurting her feelings. It makes me sad to think that she might really be upset with me about this whole situation. Especially after I told her two weeks ago I would "definitely" be back in Minneapolis at the end of April.